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I tink our distance iz getting far and far... I duno wat to do summre... V din c each other 4 one week d... V din tok to each other 4 days d...Wat wrong to us??? Sud v continue?? I reli dowan u regret... I reli dowan to hurt u... I neva regret to love u... But ya love maybe started become my luggage... Sowie to say tat... I juz dowan u treat me too gud... I dowan wen v break wil hurt u deeply... Aikx... I duno wat i'm tokin now d...

She hav a better person now... Better den me... But hope she won get hurt again... I juz hope she can happy only...

~lvir.L0l\i3ly~

To: My Star

Sowie... I won let u alone animre... I wil love u truly from now on... Sorry to let u worry bout me... I love u... I promise to protect u... I sud do it... My love... My dear... My star...



~lvir.L0l\i3ly~

Friendship? Love? Studies?

I can't have all of it... Itz ok... I'm used to it... Luckily I stil hav b.ball... I juz can fa xie at dere only... Few ppl noe wat the feeling... U all avoid me... Den fine!!! I dun mind anymre... Useless 2 ask u all... Tire of asking ppl for tingz tat is impossible... Loving sum1 iz not wrong!!! I juz tire... I giv up... I juz wan concentrate on my study for now... If u all 4get me oso nvm d... I won continue makin noise d... Sowie for all the tingz I did...

~lvir.L0l\i3ly~

Class??

I feel disappointed to all u... U all can try the bez to do ya tingz... Juz can't even take out sometym for class item... Izit so hard to stay at skul? I dun care how ppl scold me how dey tink bout me now... I say out all my feeling cuz I reli tink tat iz unfair to us (Bl, Nn and me)!!! I feel hopeless to all of u... All tingz u all settle it... Anitin la... U all wan how den how... Sia sui wan not me... Not I not responsible... Juz u all dowan stay den I can't do anitin... Everytingz v do all... If do not gud den u all juz noe complain... Let u take our place den say duno how to do... Can u all juz understand anot? If v do not gud den u all wil say and blame us... Aren't u all responsible for it too? Hate!! Hate!! Hate!!! 2day I say all the tingz here... Surely wil got ppl say not I wan u do wan... U can no nid do it ar... Ok... I dun do it... Den wil got ppl say... I'm not responsible... Wat can I do??? Say out my feeling juz wil let u all scold me say me crazy... Everytingz juz noe 2 say but duno do... I reli duno wat can I do summre to tis class... I fell tire and hopeless... Cry oso not worth juz wil let ppl scold stupid... I juz do finiz all my job den I wil stop... Not even wanna care how u all make yaself no face... I dun care... Izit our class reli dun hav hope anymre??! I duno... Sad... Hopeless...

~lvir.L0l\i3ly~

Dying

2day laz day exam... Dam happy... But my math wrong 2... Dam sad for it... Haihz... Den lm, pf, kg, ls, wy, sj, gm and me all go pragin eat mee... All lik siao lang lidat... Actually not all la.. Iz juz me and pf nia... Hahax... Lm acc me go buy present 4 ls and demo... Den pf come kacau me buy present 4 her... Dam fan... Ls buy couple key chain 4 me... Pf oso buy key chain 4 me too... Hahax... Erm... I buy photo frame 4 kg... 8 hello kitty 4 ls... Luckily dey dun mind and dey lik it... Lm belanja me eat sundae choc... Everyone very happy ler... But wen in skul sumtingz reli wil die happen ler... Somebody tink I lik her but actually not... Iz another person... No1 noe much bout tat girl... So she lik dun trust me lidat... Haihz... Die d... Reli gai d tis tym... Wat I can I do? Explain oso no use... Juz can wait only...

I oso buy present 4 my junior, Zhu Ying... I buy her a cup... Hope she lik it... Went back 2 skul juz 2 pass her the present... Hahax... Miz the life wen v all everyday come early 2 skul play basketball... Haihz... Itz fewer chance to stay back o come out meet 2gether...

I hav more feeling on her... Wen I hav more feeling on her... I reli feel sorry to u... I reli duno how 2 tel u the truth... Haihz... I'm so sorry...

I noe u wil neva giv me a chance... So I din decide to tel u tat I lik u... I juz wan lik u secretly... Be ya angel secretly...

~lvir.L0l\i3ly~

Spaghetti

Early early morning den wake and cook spaghetti 4 her... Luckily she dun mind to eat it... Hope she dun mind... Everyone were askin who iz tat girl... Juz 1 person noe the most bout the girl... Itz kenot b tel 2 ani1... Itz a secret to me... If I tel out... V might won b fren animre... I dowan fren oso kenot do... Today go exam undang... I pass... Ngam ngam ho... 42/50... Hahax... I juz use 15 minutes to do all test... The madam get shock tat I so fast come out... Hahax... Erm... I suddenly dun hav feeling to KX... Die d... But she haven notice it... I ask her whether she scare I leave her... Den she answer now i won leave her but now I juz few feeling on her... Aikx.. I seriously lik the girl now... I'm very bad... Y I can't love one person only? I reli can't control my heart felling ma? Loving some1 tat wil neva look at u... Sorry... My dear... My love... My star...

~lvir.L0l\i3ly~

Tinkin of someone

Itz midnight now... I can't sleep... Juz can't stop tinkin of her... At last she on9 d... V chat 4 quite long tym... I wil neva let her noe i lik her... I juz lik her secretly... Itz the bez way 4 both of us... She wil neva accept me... Cuz she tink i'm juz a fren... So v juz can b bez fren but not lover... But she notice tat I lik her? Hope tat she won... I dowan ani1 noe too... No1 wil noe... If I din say out... Lol... Wat iz love? Itz so easy 2 lovin sum1 but hard 2 4get sum1... I juz getting tire and tire tis day... I duno how 2 face her o her... Both oso hard 2 me... T.T... Am I bad? Ya... Vry bad... I tink myself was a jerk... I sud not start it... I sud stop it now... Wen she treat me beta and beta I feel sorry 2 her... Cuz my heart not fully wiv her... I nid 2 concentrate on my study but oso both of dem... I very selfish 4 now... I sud tel her the truth but I dun dare 2 tel... Cuz I dowan 2 hurt her anymre... But I lie her I oso hurt her d... Wat sud I do... Can ani1 tel me wat sud I do???? My mind hav both shadow... I lik both of it... Choose either one oso wil hurt both... But luckily the one I lik she duno juz tink I lik my gf very deep... Tat truth... I lik my gf and her now... But my gf nid 2 share wiv a unknown girl...

I dun care wat ppl say bout me... O scolded me... Cuz I noe I'm the one was wrong... Hope I can die now... Ppl say v live 4 ourself... But I live 4 ppl... 4 both of dem... I write out tis tingz not clear... Juz wish no1 can understand bout it... If the girl I lik she understand mean she noe I lik her d... Take care 2 both of u... I love u... Nitex...

~lvir.L0l\i3ly~

Gonna crazy

Oh no!!! I'm gonna die... No com can use... Hard disk got probz... Kenot type chinese wiv tis laptop... Dam shit nia... No com no life... Luckily I stil hav tis laptop can on9 stil... Lol... Borin day... Laz nite my leg dam pain but dun dare tel her cuz sure wil get scolding by her... So juz hugz my leg and tahan pain whole nite... Dam funny... Rite?

No1 care bout me... Tink bout me... Phone neva ring 4 whole day... Wish she msg me but she din... Haihz... Waitin she on9... But duno wen she on... Dam fan... Aikx... She might bz wiv sum1... Hurt... Sud I continue lik her anot? Arrrrrrggghhhh...

lvir.L0l\i3ly

想着某人

今天又被人推了约会,伤心... 没有机会出去了... 哈哈... 今天问某人可以星期一送早餐给她吗... 她尽然答应了... 但是有多余的... 所以只好打包给人... 真不好意思喔... 嘻嘻... 希望你能明白啦... 别生气... 能做早餐给她真好... 太高兴了... 还特地到超级市场买材料便便... 不知道她会喜欢吗...

烦恼... 喜欢一个永远都不会看你的人... 只会默默的为她付出... 给人骂笨蛋也在所不惜... 但我应该吗? 我应该继续下去? 我不知该怎么做才好... 人真的不能控制自己的情感吗? 我也猜不透自己的心里要些什么了...

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