真的爱了

我与你远吗?
还能一起吗?
我能追回吗?
没人会懂那爱...
那爱在我心里是那么的强烈...
我从没如此想挽回过...
对不起我的任性...
让你更爱寂寞了...
想陪你度过寂寞...
只做你唯一的天空...

下着雨
天空灰灰的
连心情也是灰灰的

想你到了麻木的边缘...
甚至满溢了...
就像倒满了一杯咖啡一样...
但我依然懂那是想念...
要怎么让咖啡少了?
要怎么喝了对你的思念?

空

摸不着自己的感觉...
不懂自己的心跳...
对你剩下模糊不清的心绪...
以为不爱了没了...
但当看着你时是不安的...
想懂你最近怎么了...
却得从别人口中知道...
我该抽身了吗?
还是我从来都没陷进去...
只是在外徘徊而已?
没了你真的很空...

以为感觉没了
却还是很担心你
我对你还有爱吗?
总想知道你在干嘛
你跟谁在一起?
你幸福吗?
你快乐吗?
你突然不见了
我开始焦急
却没人瞧见我的不安

我喜欢你的笑容
请你不要停止微笑
因为那是我唯一活下去的意义

让我做你的天空
只属于你的角落
不再让你寂寞了

lvir.L0l\i3ly

New Life

Itz been long tat I din use english to write out my feeling... Afta reading my last year blog... Den i juz notice it... So... Now I feeling using english 2 write tis blog... Since I hav probz wit my fren... I juz understand all the tingz... Thanx tat my brother stil tellin me tingz... I tink I sud change the way I alwiz be... The attitude I hav makin ppl irritate... I duno whether u all wil c tis blog o not... But I juz wan to say sorry to u guyz... Reli sorry for all the tingz I made... I wil try 2 change myself... But I might nid tym to do it... I noe I hurt u guyz lotz... Now it might abit l8 to notice it... But wil u guyz forgive me? Forgive the way I do o treat... Maybe I nid 2 b treated den I juz wil get the lesson... Now I get the lesson... I sud pay more tym on my fren... Oso my studies... I wil try my best to join back into the gang laz tym I been... I wil try... Wil u guyz giv me the chance? Maybe it wil b abit weird... But plz wait me... Dun giv me up... I tryin to turning back to the channel u guyz usin... Sowie...

I tink I sud stop smokin d... I noe itz not gud for my health... Wasting money too... Everytym afta I smoke... Hav smell on me... Tat not the worst... I wil feel dizzy and feel lik floating in air... Walkin Z way... The most important tingz iz all my fren dun lik I smoke... So... Stop for myself iz the best way...

I changin my celcom number 2 digi postpaid... Itz abit cheaper for me... Cuz I alwiz cal up my high school fren and junior at the midnight... Tok for hours and hours but not sms-ing... If sms I juz used the digi number I often used ler... So I wil usin 2 hp soon... Now keep money to buy phone... XD... I miss my fren very much... Especially my classmate... Although laz tym v alwiz argue for the tingz wic iz not worth... But wen the day v leave v stil hugging each other and cry... Hope can meet up wit dem soon... I noe everyone were bz workin now... Maybe the day I take my SPM result I wil c dem... Hoping every1 wil fine...

Here I wan say thanx to some1... She iz a very clever girl... She study form 6 1st class at my previous high school... She teach me alotz of tingz... Acc me for few nite... Caring how my studies go on... Sometym I might b irritate... But she stil understanding and accompany me... I noe I might kacau-ing her doin her homework... But she stil willing to help me solve my probz... Reli thanx... And I tink she noe I'm tokin bout her now... Thanx for bein my fren... Juey... Wen the day I was down... Luckily I stil hav u... But plz rmb... U stil owe me a day... XD... O.O

The next person I wanna thanx iz my beloved best friend, sister, ex-girlfriend, ex-wife wic iz C.R.O... As long as she noe I'm tokin bout her I no nid write her name... Thanx for hearin wen I nid ears... Thanx for lending ya shoulder wen I nid... Thanx for all the carin and love u gav... I reli miss u lotz... I neva noe u wil cry cuz of me... I feel heart broken wen I hear u cryin... U alwiz bein a gud fren for me... I feel glad to hav u as my fren and family... Not only take u as my fren... I already take u as part of my family... I miss the day v bein 2gether... V been 2gether for 2 years... Itz a long tym wic no one can take tat place... U ar important to me... Wherever I hav probz I wil discuss wit u... Neither U... I also share all my happiness wit u too... I been regret to hurting u laz tym... But now v become a very gud fren... I tink no1 can take ur place in my heart... No1 can understand me lik u... Although u alwiz scolding me for doin c2pid tingz but tat the way how u care... And I lik the way u show ya carin to me... XD... I love u alwiz... Dear... Hugz...

I tink I write too much for 2day d... Feeling sleepy d... Nitex...

~lvir.L0l\i3ly~

真的爱了

我以为没了...
却当说了...
我后悔了...
我很爱...
但却该放手了...
就如林峰的爱不疚...
放手放开所有彼此更自由...
或许我们真的只能当朋友...
但真的够了...
一起的日子虽然短暂...
但都彼此拥有过...
我不后悔爱过了...
恨我失去了...
真希望能会到原点...
那就不会如此痛了...
必须改变对你的方式...
但我需要时间...
没人陪我度过没有你的日子...
但在你出现前...
我已是一个人了...
所以习惯了...
你出现了...
高兴有你陪我的日子...
抱歉...
我的野蛮...
我的霸道...
什么都不能说...
只能静静地看着你...
看着你飘浮的眼神...
我懂了...
爱已回不来...
我需要人陪我度过这日子...
但有谁?
心痛了...
真的痛了...

2月4日

dEaR 琪:

那属于我们的夜晚
我们开始了
踏出了很多步
一夜之间我们的关系改变了
改变了原本的方式
我不后悔
我对你说的每句话
如果能
我想无时无刻向你诉说所有对你的思念
对不起
我的霸道
我的野蛮
有时我很不安
有时觉得自己做得不够好
我不喜欢自己的情绪化
那对你造成了伤害
我会恨透我自己
说过会好好疼你
谢谢你的体谅
或许有一天我们会分开
但我会在我们分开前好好爱你
我爱你
和你的时间总是过得那么快
真希望时间能够慢下来
让我们在一起多一会儿
可惜时间比我们走得更快
我喜欢你的所有
所有一切关于你的
我都喜欢
很想抱着你一辈子

bEaRbii 羚